This diary doesn't actually need to be anonymously published. Maybe an old version of me would've needed the ego boost, and I thought that was still the case, but I don't.

My face is good enough, it just needs estrogen effects and hair removal. To become androgynous is good enough. To masturbate about once a week is good enough, especially with reduced libido; I don't need a relationship. To dress up privately is good enough, to present androgynously in public is good enough. I don't need real friends, to speak online is good enough. I don't need a meaning in life, to feel satisfaction from personal projects and goals is good enough. I don't need to reverse time, I naturally age very slowly, and I can slow that down further, which is good enough.
I need not worry, everything is set the way it needs to be. I just need some independence, and to play around in the life I've been given, until my time is up.

Desire is an endless cycle, you must choose to halt it manually.

Poise.